Daily Devotional 10/03/25
I never felt so lost as the day I brought my daughter home from the PICU after her second surgery. Up to that point I felt like an experienced caregiver to my six month old baby. I had monitored oxygen saturations daily, been on a strict medicine schedule, and had been thickening formula for months. I was a pro. Except…this time my baby came home on oxygen. She also came home with a food pump for g-tube feeding. This time my baby needed a dozen medications every day including daily blood thinners injected by yours truly. I was sunk.
Caregiver overwhelm is a very real thing. I had to keep a notebook filled with our daily tasks, checking each one off as I went so I wouldn’t miss a medicine. I was exhausted, knew I needed sleep, but felt guilty that my husband and two healthy kids were getting little of my time. The question every day became “what do I do now?”
Psalm 25 asks the same question in a lament. In case you are unfamiliar, a lament is a passionate expression of grief or sorrow, that in biblical terms is meant to acknowledge God’s sovereignty and make a request to be reconciled.
Cry out to God with the things you are feeling. Pray for guidance when you are as lost as I once was. BUT, be ready to act when God shows you the way ahead.
God’s ways often put us out of our comfort zone. You may realize you have to ask for help. You may need to acknowledge that a hobby you are doing is making taking too much of your time and give it up for a season.
Want to know what happened in my case? I had to let go of my control. My support system was there and ready to help but they didn’t do things my way. I would fixate on clean dishes being put in the wrong cabinet and forget to thank the person that washed them. Not my finest moment.
Today, I am so thankful that my family and friends loved me through my self-centered moments. To their credit, they have forgiven me willingly. I still wish I had called out to God more at the time and I hope you will do the same.
Prayer for today:
Heavenly Father, I thank you for your steadfast love. Teach me your paths so that I may honor you in all that I do. Help me to see where I am to trying to control my surroundings and not looking to what you would have me do. In Jesus name I pray these things, Amen.
